My first reaction would be - yes! But if I think about it a little more, I can see that I am not fully dependant on Jesus when I should be.
Taking a few steps back, my life has been quite the wild ride over the last few months! My schedule has been super busy with work, preparing for school, camp, and everything else that comes along in life. Unfortunately, we all know that when times get busy or stressful, it's harder to spend the quality time with Jesus that we need and it's in these times when we need Him the most.
The busier my schedule got, the less I would make time for prayer, reading the Bible, or even just looking for the small ways Jesus was revealing himself to me in my day to day life. These are all things that I know are so important when in comes to my relationship with God but for some reason, they are the things that get pushed aside when life gets busy. When times get tough and life gets stressful, I tend to resort to trying to find solutions to my problems on my own instead of taking my problems to Jesus. It's so easy for me to get caught up in searching for affirmation from others or trying to find worth in my own accomplishments. I started to rely on my friends for the love I was longing to feel and I would focus completely on building myself up with my own personal achievements.
The thing is, I was looking among worldly things for something that could only be given to me through Jesus. I was questioning His ability to satisfy my needs by pushing Him aside and believing I could do life on my own. Although some of the people in our lives or the things we accomplish can give us temporary satisfaction, it all pales in comparison to the everlasting and unfailing love God has for us.
Don't get me wrong, God blesses us with talents, opportunities, and some pretty incredible people but it becomes a problem when we focus solely on those things and not the God who gave them to us. Sometimes we get so caught up in everything that is going on around us, we forget that Jesus is still there, waiting, just longing for us to go directly to him with everything we have.
everything pales in comparison to the everlasting and unfailing love God has for us.
I am still praying for you guys & I CAN NOT WAIT to see you all in a few months!